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Blustery Winds
04:13
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Leaning far over the edge
I'm a fool to even let this begin
We're the flame in blustery winds
And I'm a fool to let you in.
Heart decay
Hope destroys and tears away
Set me free
You're the demon that won't let go of me
Fierce insecurities
Crippling lies
All in disguise
As I love you
Leaning far over the edge
I'm a fool to even let this begin
We're the flame in blustery winds
And I'm a fool to let you in.
Feel so dead
Can't get up, can't move on,
It's all been said.
But you knew better
Then you stabbed my deepest fears
and you watched them while they bled
Fierce insecurities
your cold siren eyes
Keeping the guise
of I love you
Leaning far over the edge
I'm a fool to even let this begin
We're the flame in blustery winds
And I'm a fool to let you in.
I can say it once and it rings true
That I am done once and for all with you
But if you chase me you know I'll turn right back
I'm not strong enough for that
I'm not strong enough for that.
Leaning far over the edge
I'm a fool to even let this begin
We're the flame in blustery winds
And I'm a fool to let you in.
We're the flame in blustery winds
And I'm a fool to let you in.
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Sunrise
05:08
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Something in his eyes, it keeps me guessing
There's an answer why I've been here all this time
And it's wrapped up in this ever-burning question
Will the sun rise?
There's an ever-rushing tide that keeps me steady
Hope beyond the hope that sometimes fades away
Hiding underneath the maybe and not ready
Will he find another way?
Moving on
Towards or away
All he knows is that he'll stay
Running for the higher prize
So much more than golden beams and empty eyes
Will the sun rise?
Chains on doors and empty hearths and closed up windows
Things that he leaves behind but chase him in the dark
Shame is all but fear and calls in distance echoes
Is it all that we are?
Moving on
Towards or away
All he knows is that he'll stay
Running for the higher prize
So much more than hollow halls and lilac skies
Will the sun rise?
His father left him standing at the station
While the sky rumbled and turned to black and blue
And now it haunts him every time that it starts raining
And he doesn't understand when I say, "I will stay with you."
He doesn't understand when I say, "I will stay with you."
Moving on
Towards or away
All he knows is that he's gonna stay
Running for the higher prize
So much more than golden beams and empty eyes
So much more than hollow halls and lilac skies
So much more than what they say about you and I
So much more than questioning the sunrise.
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Sleepwalking
04:15
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I can't sleep
It's hard to breathe
It's hard to say
That they were right
You're hard to keep, you wouldn't stay
But I believed in the you you showed me
I loved a man who would never owe me
So who is standing in front of me now?
I must be sleepwalking
Cause I know this can't be true
You must be sleep talking
Cause this doesn't sound like you
And there's a fine line between denial and despair
Just a fool controlled by a broken heart
Sleepwalking right into your stone cold arms.
You left a hole
I try to fill with plans and dreams
But those were you
You were supposed to be with me
But I believed in the you you showed me
I loved a man who would never owe me
So who is standing in front of me now?
I must be sleepwalking
Cause I know this can't be true
You must be sleep talking
Cause this doesn't sound like you
And there's a fine line between denial and despair
Just a fool controlled by a broken heart
Sleepwalking right into your stone cold arms.
Who are you and why does this seem like the final ending?
Where is the one that I once knew, oh were you just pretending?
Who are you and why does this seem like the final ending?
Where is the one that I once knew?
I must be sleepwalking
Cause this can't be happening
I'll say you're sleep talking
And I'll swear it's just a dream
And when I wake up it'll be like nothing's changed
And I'll act like you didn't tear me apart
Sleepwalking in denial's loving arms.
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Matters to Me
03:22
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You ask me to move along
But I am weak and you are strong
You move on
You don't understand
That you're all gone
and that matters to me.
You were here and now you're not
I’m sure I should have forgotten
What I had
What I lost
How I gave my all for nothing
Can you keep our memories
Cause I'm too sad to remember
How you held me, how you held me
In December.
The summer sun cast deceit
Then when snowfall came, you left me.
The moments last til they fade away
You are in the past and that matters to me.
You were here and now you're not
I’m sure I should have forgotten
What I had
What I lost
How I gave my all for nothing
Can you keep our memories
Cause I'm too sad to remember
How you held me, how you held me
How you left me, how you left me
In December.
You're just fine
Your days roll on
But you were mine and that matters to me.
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All Around Me
03:31
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It's in the past
I tell myself
But it seems to last and last and last
You are gone
I tell myself
But it seems to go on and on and on and on
The past is still resounding
Cause you won't let me mourn
Your shadow’s all around me
And I can't shake you.
I'm still here
I tell myself
But I'm just fear and fear
and fear I'm someone else
You were true
I tell myself
But what if I didn't know you, you, you
The past is still resounding
Cause you won't let me mourn
Your shadow’s all around me
And I can't shake you.
If you let go
Then I'll be free
But what is freedom
If you're not here with me
If you let go
Then I'll be free
But what is freedom
If you're not here with me
The past is still resounding
Cause you won't let me mourn
Your shadow’s all around me
And I can't shake you.
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Enough
04:10
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Lay my head down
In the bed where you used to be
I can’t shake the feeling
of your hands all over me.
Too many years and too many blows
Too many shame awards to show
The doubt domination
A break in my soul
For the nights I believed you would never let go
The lies and excuses were just cover-ups
For that you didn’t love me enough
Darling, you didn’t love me enough.
Haunts my dreams, my thoughts,
My days are spent on missing you
Wasting away
Living while the ghost of you stays true.
Too many years and too many blows
Too many shame awards to show
The doubt domination
A break in my soul
For the nights I believed you would never let go
The lies and excuses were just cover-ups
For that you didn’t love me enough
Darling, you didn’t love me enough.
And you know what’s so wrong?
I shouldn’t miss you at all
Cause you made me feel worthless and weak and small
But the love of my life is the one I will always forgive.
Looking back it was wrong
You were cruel to me
But I can’t shake the feeling that we're meant to be
And my body’s grown old from all of your sin
So I can’t let you see me again
I can't let you see me again.
Too many years and too many blows
Too many shame awards to show
The doubt domination
A break in my soul
For the nights I believed you would never let go
The lies and excuses were just cover-ups
For that you didn’t love me enough
You didn’t love me enough.
My darling, you didn't think I'm enough
But darling, I swear I’m enough for you.
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Ending
01:25
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Here's to the ending of the we that I knew
The end to pretending that I'd be with you
The end of the nightmare that I was used
Here's to the ending.
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Mandy Pennington Louisville, Kentucky
Inspired by artists such as Sara Bareilles, Ingrid Michaelson, and Taylor Swift, Mandy Pennington creates piano-led pop that invokes a visceral reaction from her audiences. Her style is influenced not only by these three artists, but also brings in elements of musical theater and soul. Mandy is working on three new singles based around the idea of “letting go” that will be released in 2019. ... more
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